"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."-Oscar Wilde

Louise Brooks--1920's Silent Film Star

It has been a rough week full of ups and downs...Although, today has been a decent day filled with a ton of positives. The first important positive thing was that my boyfriend told me he wants to still pursue this relationship of ours...but we both know it's going to be hard, I know we will get through it and just need strive to be with each other, in person, again. That left me feeling so happy and relieved. We hadn't had a decent conversation in a week and to hear that really lifted a huge weight  off my shoulders. I had fasted three times last week, for that issue, and it really helped. 

      The second positive was that I'm really getting close to choosing an apartment for when I move to Chicago in less than two weeks. They are both near Lake Michigan and are studio apartments (they are small, but it will be my first time ever renting a place. Eeep!) They are nice looking though and near the train station and 40 mins away from the college I will be going to. I just hope, that once I get there, I'll get a job. I really want another source of money rather than from my school loan. I don't want to worry about bills and school at the same time...that would be tres mal! :-) I'm excited though..I'll be able to walk everywhere. I won't have to rely on cars...and I'll have more stuff and entertainment near me...yips, hips, and leather whips! :-) Anyways, back to the apartment--I'm making my decision on Wednesday and sending in the application---I just hope I get approved. *fingers crossed*

      Hmmm...the third positive, I haven't been binging and trying to not to stress about what I eat. I'm trying to take everything day by day. So yeah, I'll get to my goal some day soon...especially when I get to Chicago 'cos I'll be much more active. Being in a small city...especially a small city in the desert...it takes a toll on one's physical activity. To much reliance on cars for getting you to places and the weather isn't much help either, but I know I'm full of excuses--oh well. ;-)

     Ok well, I guess I'm going to end this here. I'm rambling, bamboozling and etc.  I really hope you lovely ladies are doing well and each and every day is seeming more brighter and happier. You all deserve to be happy and carefree. :-)

Stay lovely...

Love always,

Maria xxxx