Trying to be positively optimistic...and a little background about me.

Padma Lakshmi---She is so beautiful; I'm jealous.

Today has been an...ummm....OK day, I suppose. I'm really trying to be positive. One positive of the day was that I talked to a lady about finding me an apartment in Chicago--I leave in seventeen days. Eeep. She seemed very nice and helpful and explained everything really well. I can't wait until she sends me the listings so I can get this over and done with. I want to have a guarantee on a place at least by next week. I don't want to arrive there and have to fork out the unnecessary money towards a hotel/motel for more than a couple of days. It's going to be an experience...definitely. It's going to be the first time moving out of the parent's house--yeah I'm a slacker in that area especially since I'm 26. It's scary going to a new city and not knowing a single soul, but I know I can adapt...or at least I hope so. haha.
     Next positive of the day is that I did OK with the food consumption---No breakfast, Lunch= Hot dog with five potato chips, Dinner=7 homemade mini chicken egg rolls and 1/4 c. fried rice. Yeah, I wish I would have eaten less than that, but what can one do. I do love food...I love the taste, but I hate what it does...I hate that it turns into calories and makes you gain weight. I just wish they made pills/tablets that had the taste of food but not the calories. The stupid Jetsons (cartoon)for getting my hopes up on the future of food. :-)
     Anyways, let me give you a little background on who I am, my family, my likes, dislikes, and etc. I was born in Victorville, CA at the home I live in now. I have a mother, a father and five siblings (two brothers and three sisters.) I'm the second oldest and have an older brother who precedes me. I love to draw/sketch--mostly I do sketches of people. I sing, play piano(self-taught), and love to dance. I love music. I couldn't live life without music, honestly. I used to go to school for Fashion Design but didn't finish that due to losing passion for it and being in a car accident after the first year. I'm going into college for Baking and Pastry at Le Cordon Bleu. I really love to decorate cakes and just bake in general. Ummm, I've been with my boyfriend for over a year...we met online and we've been with each other in person---but it's definitely hard being in a long-distance relationship. I love being random--but I am a bit too random, at times. I love donating blood 'cos it's a sane and healthy way of seeing what your blood looks like.

Genres of Music I enjoy--Eighties, Nineties, Classic Rock, Ska, Old-school Punk, Folk, Indie, Classical, and Broadway. Favourite bands/singers--The Smiths/Morrissey, Depeche Mode, Elliott Smith, Ian Brown/The Stone Roses, New Order, Joy Division, Oingo Boingo, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Bauhaus, Erasure, The Doors, The Beatles, The Who, The Misfits, The Adicts, The Zombies, Band of Horses, Grizzly Bear, White Town, Arcade Fire, Talking Heads...and so many others.  

I love reading; favourite authors/playwrights/poets--Oscar Wilde, Anthony Burgess, Ray Bradbury, Emily Dickinson, Christina Rossetti, Sylvia Plath, Samuel Beckett, Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte...and many others. Favourite books--Prozac Nation, A Clockwork Orange, Jane Eyre, Rebecca, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Pride and Prejudice, P.S. I love you, Valley of the Dolls, Angela's Ashes...and more.
   
I love to travel overseas--I've been to Ireland (Four times since 2006), Bologna, Italy, and Frankfurt Germany.

Fears--Rejection, losing loved ones, heights, snakes and any scary creature, dying of an unknown illness, unrequited love, awkward silence, ultimatums that lead to the demise of something important, being lonely, becoming an old maid with ten million cats, and having to turn left from a parking lot onto a two-way street.

Yeah...I think that explains 'Me' for the least part. I wish I was more cultured though and had more talents---but I'm definitely working on that.

I hope everyone had a good day/evening...etc.

Stay strong, stay lovely, and stay safe...


Much love,

Maria xxxxxxxxxx