Je suis très stupide. Ich bin sehr dumm. Estoy muy estúpida. I am stupid, but it's ok. :-)

Edie Sedgwick--a free spirit. R.I.P

       Well, today (Actually yesterday...since it's 3.11am over here.) was a decent day. My boyfriend contacted me...YAY! The only problem was that I messed up and binged my heart out, unintentionally. I was doing so well until I went out to the cinema with my little sister, Sierra and my friend(Allia's boyfriend) Alex. We went and saw the film 'The Last Exorcism'. It was actually a decent film for being a faux documentary horror film. It had a little humour in it but a bit freaky at the same time.
      Anyways, before going to the cinema, I only consumed 650ish calories and had burned it all off. So I was at zero calories for the time being. Then, I went to the film snacked on some sour patch kids, pretzels, diet coke....and then after the film...DUN dun DUUUUNNN...In 'N' Out. Argggggggh, I wish I would have stayed vegetarian (In high school I was veggie for all four years and then wasn't for 5 years and then went back to veggie for 3 years...and so the cycle continues...), 'cos it would have been so easy to say, "Eh, no thanks. There's nothing I can eat here." Then I wouldn't have eaten the blahdy-blahness.  Well, I can't be too hard on myself 'cos I've done pretty good with not binging all week, so I'll let this one slide. I was able to go straight home afterwards and purge it all up---which makes yourself feel so much better.
     Yeah, so I'm not even going to attempt to type down all my food intake tonight 'cos I didn't measure anything out and I don't want to put myself in a downer due to it. BTW, I think I'm going to start a two-day fast on Sunday...the main reason is for my older brother, Michael. He was just deployed over to Afghanistan on Tuesday. So, it will be dedicated to him and for any other person who might be going through some sort of hardship at this time. So, hopefully I can practice the self-control and get through this. I will keep drinking liquids during the fast so that I don't dehydrate and what not.

   I hope all you lovely girls, who read this, are having a spectacular and magnificient day full of positiveness. I wish you all the best on this day to day fight on finally reaching your ultimate goal. I'm rooting for you to accomplish it!!!

Peace, love, and beautiful butterflies,

Maria xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx