I don't know why I'm so superstitious at times or feel that I might be jinxed when certain things or events happen. Is it because I want a scapegoat for why things go awry? Or is it because I'm just a routine-ish type of person and expect such things to happen on such given time. Anyways, the superstition of the day is the date of August 25th. Three years ago, exactly, one of my old boyfriends broke up with me after he got home from a late night party...he was also a long distance relationship living in Dublin, Ireland. (Yes, I really love Irish boys, I can't help it.) During that relationship I was about to move out to Ireland to be with him in a couple months, and of course it ended with a drop of dime. A year long relationship that I thought was going so well...and poof it ended like that. Of course I'm thankful it ended 'cos I would have never met my boyfriend of the present. He's wonderful...and of course we have the typical problems that come with being in a relationship, but we always solve our problems and etc. Anyways, tonight my boyfriend went to a gig of his favourite musician, Mark Lanegan. I bought the ticket for him and I'm happy I did 'cos he definitely deserves it. But yeah, I'm just sort of freaking out--thinking it will be the same outcome. I know in my heart it won't be, but I still get so scared at times. On a positive note, he did email me before he left and told me how excited he was and how he appreciated me giving him the opportunity to see this musician. I just hope I didn't open an opportunity for him to meet another girl who is a lot more interesting than me especially with the benefit of her living closer. :-( STOP it, Maria...STOP being so negative. Arrrrgggh. Someone save me from this mind, please! I hate it when things seem like they are going so well and then the next day everything just messes up royally. Maybe my negative thoughts make it happen...or it's karma coming back to haunt me. I don't know what I've done wrong for those sort of things to happen. Yeah, I feel emotionally retarded for thinking such things and letting it bother me. Blech. :-( The one thing that is keeping me afloat is my faith in prayer and knowing somehow God is there to take care of me. I'm not crazy religious, but I do believe in God and his mysterious ways of helping me out in times of crisis...Yeah. Pfffffttt....
*SIGH* Another positive of the day is that I did pretty well with the calorie intake, small portions and all. Yippee.
Breakfast-
Red plum- 30cals.
Lunch-
1oz tortilla chips-140cals.
1/8c.Medium cheddar, shredded-60cals.
1tbsp Salsa-5cals.
1tbsp Sour Cream-30cals.
Snack-
3 chocolate covered wafers-130cals
English Tea with tbsp of milk-10cals.
Dinner-
1 egg, scrambled-70cals.
2 slices bacon-90cals.
1 buttermilk biscuit-100cals.
Vitamin Water- 100cals....geez Louise...
Total Consumed=765cals.
Total Burned=1190cals.
-425 cals. for the day! Yay! But I'll be working out later to burn off more. :-)
Anyways, I just hope tomorrow is a good day and that I'll hear from my love and I truly hope he had a good time. Please no bad news....pretty please with a cherry on top. :-/
Peace, love, and high hopes,
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