Late night/early morning thoughts and first post.

Sharon Tate...She was so gorgeous. (RIP)

     Well, here I am...it's 4am over here in California, and I'm still awake. I should be asleep, but I've been having trouble with the whole sleep thing for the last few weeks. It's a bit daunting and frustrating, but I suppose that's life. Anyways, I decided to start this blog to keep tabs on my diet, my emotions...basically my daily life. I know no one will read this blog, but at least it will help get random and harmful thoughts out of my head. Yeah.
     Today (well, actually yesterday) I had a decent day, I think. I had a good time talking to my boyfriend, who's miles upon miles away in Ireland...so any time that I get to talk to him makes my day go a lot better. After talking to him on the phone, I went to the cinema with my sister, Sierra and her two friends Dawn and Mandy. Allia's (my other sister) boyfriend was there, too. We ended up seeing 'Vampire Sucks'. It was an OK film, it was so stupid that you just had to laugh at it. And, I ended up eating too much in the evening, which is a No, NO, no...I was doing so well with eating some fruit earlier and then at 9pm I ended up eating Del Taco. After the film, I ended up eating at In-N-out....bleh. Cheeseburger, some fries and a strawberry blahshake. The only saving grace was being able to come straight home afterwards and purge most of it out...'cos my stomach didn't appreciate the shite. But yeah...I really need to lose weight. I've gained so much weight the past few months from stress, holidays, and depression. I just don't understand how it happens so fast. You gain the weight fast, but it takes ages to work off the weight. Blah to the max.
     I've always had this problem...my weight fluctuating, constantly. I wonder if I messed up my metabolism when I was around the age of eight. I remember my friends and I would go on these diets where we would try not to eat much and if we did eat a lot we would vomit it all up...what an unhealthy way to start a childhood....having a eating disorder. Now at the age of 26, I'm still on this roller coaster, just hope that one day soon I'll be at a weight I'm happy and proud to be at...I want this 'pretty' face of mine to be part of a whole package of prettiness...hopefully this blog will allow me to accomplish this goal/dream. Hope is the keyword...

Cheers.

xxxx